The story of an addict who tells us his story with the experience of recovery, and after failing alone, he suffers again from his addiction, and now he tells us his story after his relapse, how he experienced with relapse and how he fell into it, and how he stopped again from his addiction and returned to recover again.
Beginning with drug abuse – the story of an addict
I was a very good person, not addicted and everyone knew me well and everyone shared feelings of love and respect for me, I had real principles like honesty and everyone around me trusted me and no one ignored dealing with me, then my drug story started, it started with a regular cigarette, then I was sitting one day With my “in the past” friends and I see that when they meet me, they laugh and make me feel so happy, because they use cannabis.
At the time, I was curious to discover the secret of this feeling, which was obvious to my friends because of this drug, and I wanted to try it, not knowing that I would be addicted later, then I felt comfortable and became every part of my life if I was funny or angry or on occasion Happy or even a sad occasion I was constantly taking cannabis, after which cannabis became the number one priority in my life and in a more precise sense it became an addiction.
After that, I lost the wonderful feeling that I was using hashish for, and started looking for another substance that would make me feel the feeling that I missed after a while of using hashish, and I resorted to another drug, which is astrox…. It was another magic for me, far from cannabis, and the estrux would make me lose any sense of tiredness, pain or anger, as if I lived in another world.
And after a while of using it, I discovered that I “dose in order to live and live in order to use,” and then my life began to be destroyed and I became a harmful person to those around me, the most important of whom were my family, and I started stealing, slandering and harming all the people in my life, and despite that, I continued to use, I did not discover that I was addicted until that time, then I searched for a way out of that deadly cycle and found that it was possible to get out of it, but it required me a lot of effort.
The beginning of my life with recovery for the first time
I had a very strong enthusiasm for that experience and found that solving my problem with addiction and that I am an addicted person was much easier than I expected, and I went to a treatment center and there I learned the principles that I lost while taking drugs, and I also learned many, many things that I did not acquire in my previous life that I missed Because of the abuse, and I learned to get everything inside me out honestly in order to get real help, and I learned to live the rest of my life through 5 priorities for the last day of my life and I was already doing what was required, but the honesty was missing a bit and from here I must say that this is the beginning I relapsed and became addicted again… And as they say in one of the treatment programs, I can.
I began to lose my new priorities one by one, the most important of which was not participating, not attending meetings and not communicating with the personal therapist, and then I began to break the first steps of recovery, which is that sitting with people who are still using and I saw that the program was false when I sat with them and I did not relapse as they say in the program once after Once, I fell into the trap again, and this is where my struggle with relapse began. And my life became unmanageable again.
The story of an addict – suffering and relapse
In the beginning, the relapse was not for a long time, but rather not by chance, as I mentioned before. It is a gradual occurrence, “addicted.” And the beginning was drinking a glass of beer with a friend on an occasion, and then I sat with myself saying that it will go away and it is only once and I will be satisfied with it, but the truth is as he says The program, one dose is not enough and thousands of doses are not satiated, and from here I discovered that I started to slip back to what I was and a glass of beer came with my favorite cigarette, which is hashish, and then the astrox again, and here I began to feel that stopping is difficult and that I specifically will not work to stop and life stopped again and all that It was in a very short time and it ranged from one to three weeks only.
Then I started my unpopular habit of stealing, defrauding, lying, dodging and causing a lot of problems for my family and my normal friends, and it started to take a completely different form than it was before before I tried recovery, and my life became a mess and everything I gained during my recovery journey I lost it forever and became a person It is different and the difference here means about the period of experience, abuse, addiction and recovery as well as a completely new thing, and it is a relapsed person between a recovering in the clutches of addiction once again and an addicted person.
Where does the help come from?
I got to know someone who was working in that preventive field of drug addiction and abuse, and we became close friends and he began to know my story with addiction and the experience of recovery and that I was still suffering again and he wanted to help me get recovery again after I lost my family and my whole life, and at first I refused and thought that this was temporary and that I could on my own, but he had the vision of what I was doing and insisted that I try again, and with his help I am now recovering again and started working on my program with complete safety so that I do not fall into this problem again… Thank you with Greetings, recovering addict.
