A lot of problems suddenly entered my life, and my life suddenly changed. I began to look at life in a different way, and the responsibility increased and the burden on me increased. I kept looking for a way out of all these burdens, but there were always two choices in everything, either to make a right decision to overcome the difficulties that I am facing. As for you, you made the bad decision, but the winds always come with what ships do not desire. The family treatment differed, and I saw the social difference between me and others, and class hatred became prevalent in me. Why am I without those who I think are more comfortable than me? Why is the work manager in this position that I have? I can never reach it. Why do I see the family always standing in front of my dreams and ambitions? It became much worse and the time came to make a decision and one of the times when I was pretending that I was normal and healthy and had no problems in front of others and laughed with them, but from the outside only was loneliness And solitude are the ones who control I laugh only from the outside.
One of the friends around me noticed that I was in an abnormal state, and this was the beginning of the beginning of getting out of the feeling inside me and also the worst start, which is entering the drugs. My friend gave me some hallucinogenic pills that will help me get out of this feeling and we started talking a lot and started We increase our use of this drug in addition to other drugs, and I have no sense of any of the problems or people around me, and whenever I feel happy, I take drugs to increase my happiness, and when I feel sadness, I also take it in order to forget this sadness and pain.
My life was limited to drugs a lot, and drugs interfered with everything I do. My physical, physical and mental condition deteriorated. I kept repenting a lot for what I did to myself, but to no avail. The disease of addiction became very much in control of me from within, and it moved me externally until I developed and dealt with my addiction Heroin and this was the end for me. My work stopped and the responsibility was lost and I no longer looked at anything but taking drugs, only going to buy it and taking it, and after that it was not important, everything was lost and the situation deteriorated more and more and my friends and family abandoned me and I’m becoming more and more lonely and useless I don’t see any way to stop using the feeling of pain and the controlling thoughts inside me control me.
And one day any of my friends came and asked me to stop taking drugs because I became unpopular among my friends, family and society as a whole, but to no avail. I don’t know them and they talk about being addicted and that these convulsive symptoms come to me many times and I did not stop and did not remember them before. Then the person who asked me to stop using came and we did some tests for drugs and methods of use and I kept not knowing why it all happened That and I entered one of the centers of Dar Al-Amal addiction treatment and stopped taking the drug, but my patients always prepared for me that one day I would go back to drugs again and again prepare for me that I would go back to using, but in a different way and I have the ability to control this time, but with a lot of talking What is going on inside me, the specialists and doctors dealt correctly with what is going on inside my head and all the thoughts inside me, and so far I have stopped dealing and control my bad thoughts with the simplest solutions.
Now I know that I have something big inside of me, but I control it with addiction. We are the ones who make it and we are in our hands. We make it nothing by learning the studied steps from specialists in the field of addiction treatment in Abu Rjeleh hospitals for psychiatry and addiction treatment, and I learned that there are always two options and not just one, and you are the one who Choose your start and end
This is my end. I stop taking all kinds of drugs. I control my emotions and thoughts and deal with them in a positive way. I see my productive role in society and I return to normal life. As long as I stop giving, I have the ability to solve all my problems simply, so behind all the walls of worries there are windows from which hope rises.
Written by: recovering addict
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